Today I literally had to make myself not be a hypocrite. I tell everyone everywhere that it is better to try and fail than to not try at all. Today I was tested.
They were auditioning for pirates at Disneyland today. I was feeling so insecure about it because my pirate accent isn't top notch... I mean really, who's is?
Anyway, I had to work at apple just before the audition and got stuck helping a customer. I thought "Perfect! Now that I'm late, I have an excuse to not go." But here's the thing... it was just an excuse. The only way to truly try and fail is to actually try.
I had so many excuses to not go. I was late, I was still wearing my apple clothes, I had no make up, I wasn't sure I had my Disney ID, I didn't know what I would have to do at the audition... but I could not be that girl. I could not be the person to turn around just because of insecurity. If I didn't get this job, it was because I didn't deserve, not because I didn't try.
I raced to the audition. I got there very very late and they kindly saw me anyway. However, by the time I auditioned everyone else had gone home. I was all alone (talk about intimidating). But I tried and I did my best.
I don't know if I got it or not, but at least I know I tried. I refuse to let fear rule my decisions.